OH MY GOD. I just walked in on my roommates…….they stopped and jumped up and made it all obvious so I just walked through the room and didn’t even say hi. I am not even sure how to bring it up to them hahaha
It really gives the opportunity to check up on old friends/high school acquaintances just generally anybody you do not really talk to anymore without the weird awkwardness, fake smiles and fraudulent interests. It just provides information at what they are doing, where they are going in life and if they are happy or not. Just the juicy facts. So I took this opportunity on a bored uneventful Friday night to do just that. I stumbled on my ex girlfriends facebook, dumb idea I know. Now I know it is somewhat creepy and stalkerish but who doesn’t do this? I don’t talk to my ex girlfriend anymore especially after our horrible break up. She was 4.5 years of my life and had a huge impact in the place that I am at right now. I use to love her and even though all the bullshit, I still care for her but it would be impossible for me to talk to her face to face. (I still think that the drama between me and her could be a book of some sorts, it was bad really bad.) Anyways! I could never forgive her for what she did but I still wonder where she is at in life. Kind of weird even though it has been so long since we broke up but never the less I still get curious. She was an amazing artist and had a great talent for drawing, painting but more specifically theatrical make-up. She was encompassed in the world of theater. Believe me she really did have a knack for being creative and make up, which I have no clue where she got but she was amazing at it. When we last talked she was attending a prestigious art school in order to pursue her career in that industry, she was chasing her dream. A couple years pass and she graduates, this point in my life I actually felt happy for her and bitter no longer. Couple months pass and soon after she wants to pursue a different career path in, nursing?!?!? Nursing is cool and everything but I just think that she really does have a talent for the arts. Here’s the part that I wish I could actually have a friendship with her and sit her down and just tell her “I think you are extremely talented in art, I think you should stick with it and reach the previous goals you set for yourself. You are the most creative person I have ever met and the things you come up with are so innovative and just awe inspiring. I don’t know much about the industry but I know you are amazingly good at what you do. You have already gotten this far so why not continue in being bad ass in make up? Make a name for yourself turn some heads be in the career that you always told me about with so much passion.” I don’t know what’s going through her mind about switching career paths so drastically but I just think with that talent it shouldn’t be wasted, it should be seen. Then again people chase at what makes them happy so who the fuck am I to be preaching to a person that I couldn’t possible talk to. I mean as long as she is happy in life that’s cool. I just knew if she does pursue the art thing that her name would be associated with fame/greatness/prodigious. I would never say this to her and she would never know. This is why I think social networks are fantastic. I can view her status in life and she would never know. I would never have to talk to her and be reminded of why we don’t talk or that pain that she caused. Instead I’ll stay on the side hoping for the best and that she stays happy.
that I was in a burger joint with those taxidermy animal heads lined up on the walls. Then a big giant wolf/dog was walking around and was talking and said he was the owner and that the animal heads on the wall were the previous owners. All the friends that I was with had bleached blonde eye brows, then I woke up and I was 20 minutes late to work.
post a lot of things that go in my head because I am afraid of what people would think. But I am starting to learn, who cares. I should say whatever without worrying about the backlash it will cause. Rock the boat, cause some trouble. Seems like I always try to retain negative ideas to myself but that really hasn’t gotten me anywhere. Plus who doesn’t like shit talking and drama. I’ll hide behind my computer while I talk all the shit I can.
last weekend with my parents. I was hanging with my Mother having some Mom/Son bonding. She then asked me if I thought any girls were cute. I said “yah, the girl in the blue dress.” Five minutes later she drags the girl in the blue dress and introduces her to me. I was dumbfounded at what my Mom just did. I responded to the girl in the blue dress “uhhhhhhh.” I ruined my opportunity of looking cool. Thanks Mom for being an unexpectedly good wing woman.
The night we met, I knew we shared a moment when you ran your finger through my hair while I closed my eyes enjoying how good it felt to experience a woman’s touch in such a long time. Then I opened my eyes and we were looking at each other with stupid smiles. I never did get to say goodbye and I know we will never see each other again, but that moment was mine.
My first weekend in a month at home. I enjoyed it fully by just being lazy around the house. Entered a jam with my roommate zodiac. Bought a big screen tv that put me back in cash flow but the most upsetting part of the weekend was trying to mount my television on the wall. I can’t for the life of me find these damn wall studs to bolt my tv on. I even bought a wall stud finder and still can’t locate it and because of my inexperience as a handy man I have 10 holes in my wall. I am so desperate for help. I put the project aside for later today so I can continue to destroy my wall hoping to find the wall studs.
It was my first weekend in my new place and I can say I really do love the new location.
My next two weeks consist of even more traveling, Chicago this week and Seattle for the 2nd time this year the week after. I don’t think I want to travel anymore after this except for New York in October for Evolution. Traveling isn’t as good as it seems when you do it in rapid succession, lesson learned.
“Why aren’t we inundated with time travelers from the future? They should be here right now, knowing full well that we’re interested in such topics as time travel to explain just how they accomplish it from a future tens of thousands of years in the future. This isn’t the case because maybe this science fiction dream is just that: a dream.”—Stephen Hawking-The Nature of Time and Space