I don’t understand it…like at all
I recently reconnected with an old friend. We lost touch because of some stupid drama but we haven’t really spoke to each other in 3 years. I asked her, “how do you see me now?” I laughed at what she said. She stated that I am, “quiet and shy.” I guess I am but I wondered how I got there.
I think its amazing how our environment and surroundings have such an impact on our life. Location, music, friends, movies, hobbies, area, job, drugs, girls can shape how a person is. A lot has happened in three years. I moved to the bay, moved back to Southern California. Steadily moved up the corporate ladder, lost friends gained friends, started smoking again and somehow maintained to be single with my dashing good looks.
I am who I am because of the things around me. I see things the way I do because people and events tell me how to see things. I would like to think I am different but maybe that’s just something that everybody feels to make meaning in their life. I criticize people for being different but they are just on their own path in life just like myself. There has been many good and bad things in life but I take it how it is and move on. It’s kind of exciting I’m turning 26 next week and after college I have always worried about getting old. I’m not quite old yet but I can see the gradual change from my childhood to what I am now. I can honestly say that I am happy for who I am and what I have become, a bad mother fucker.
I am a disgusting piece of shit
What have I become?
This life is too long and there are so very little activities to fill the time.
Alcohol and Drugs fill my time
I wonder if I can venture deeper into this void